This week I've lost my motivation to blog. Here I am on Thursday night deciding that I need to get something down on paper.... or computer screen.... whatevah!
Things I am working on this week for the overall wellness plan resolution:
I am following the meal plan on sparkpeople.com. It basically gives you a set up meal plan for the week. You can choose to follow this, or choose to hide it and go with your own food items. The custom diet I am on calls for three meals and two snacks. The three meals average about 400 calories and the snacks are somewhere around 200 calories a day. I noticed in just being aware of my eating on sparkpeople that I can easily chow down on about 1000 calories at lunch, especially if we go out for lunch.
My other goal I have set for the next 28 days is to be part of sparkpeoples 28 day boot camp challenge. You do a 10 minute strength training video every day - it's not complicated at all and works out different body parts every day, some take less than 10 minutes - and you commit to doing 30 minutes of cardio for 5 days of your week. You repeat these steps for four weeks.
Well, I know I can commit to getting my exercise. Thanks to the Wii 9 week challenge I have instilled in myself a nice little habit of waking up an hour earlier, working out, then getting to the showers and getting ready for work. With the boot camp challenge, I actually have time to loll around if I wake up an hour early after my work out. I only have to commit to the half hour of cardio and the video, maybe 50 minutes of work if I draw it out.
So far I have used the treadmill Taty sent over to me (thank you for the hand me down - I have wanted one of these for awhile), yes it is rickety, yes it is ancient, but it works and I can get a workout in the comfort of my home quick and easy. I have been doing interval training on the treadmill to keep me interested and am starting with a 22 minute beginner interval training on the treadmill based on an article from sparkpeople - yes, this website is FREE and a wealth of knowledge about the rat race of getting in shape and losing weight. To sum up the interval training, I do a warm up - two minutes brisk, 1 minute fast, two minutes slow, one minute fast as I can go, etc on for about 15 minutes, and then on to the cool down. I have also been following that up with a 10 minute yoga for flexibility and relaxation video. All in all it gets the job done and doesn't draw out my workout for an hour like the Wii Sports Active 2 did... not that it was a bad thing, just a bit of down time waiting for an exercise to load, etc. After I finish my workouts I scurry over to the kitchen and fix up my breakfast for the day according to the meal plan. I also pack up my lunch and snacks for the day at work.
So far things are going well with the meal plan. It isn't really expensive to buy groceries based on it, because you can swap out items you don't like for things you do and make it work with the items you had already bought. I spent about $150 to get started on it a week ago and have lots of groceries left (that $150 was based on a completely empty fridge and cabinets, now they are still stocked nicely after a week). I just have to make a small run for more meats - not necessary, but I like to keep the variety up - and some more produce. I am pretty much keeping up with the same grocery budget, just buying drastically different things. For instance, I had a great conversation with my meat man at Fresh Market the other day about only needing 4 oz of salmon and about the same in tilapia and pork tenderloin. He grumbled a bit about the salmon, said "I would like to meet that doctor", told me he couldn't cut the tilapia (no big deal I got one fillet) and I didn't even bother fussing with him about the pork tenderloin. I am making my dinner while my family eats there's, but TomTom wanted my salmon so I told him I would get enough for both of us next time. Go TomTom! I had never cooked salmon before and it turned out great. Then we had Tilapia, I had never cooked that before either, but he ate all of that too. Looks like he will be on board for my sparkpeople meals which makes life easier for me.
Some times I do get hungry, and some times I do feel like I am not eating any meat. I am getting my protein thru nuts and egg whites, not necessarily meat. I'm used to having meat with every meal, but lately... not so much. It is a difference and I notice it now and then, but I have also come to appreciate the sacrifice an animal makes for me to be able to eat its meat - something I have thought very little of in the past. I realized a lot about the whole process when I read the "Slaughter" chapter in the "Ravenous" book.
Some times it gets hard - today I had a piece of cake for Jessica's birthday at work. However, I didn't eat my other snack to help make up for it. Was it worth it? I think of all the watermelon and produce I could have eaten instead of that too thin piece of cake, but it was damn good. Tonight I wanted to give in because I was HUNGRY - why??? Went too long without eating because after work I went to TomTom's baseball evaluation. I was going to hang it up and go for ice cream since he had all A's on his report card. Fate intervened because the shop was closed that was on our way home.... but right across the street was Mamma D's... the best pizza ever... and I could smell that pizza... it had my name on it... a big ole greasy piece with pepperoni, italian sausage, black olives, onions, and jalapenos.... HEEEELLLLLOOOOOOO LOVER!!! I had a moment and breathed it in and told TomTom... what I would do for a piece of Mamma D's right now! He was of course up for it, but I told him I couldn't do it, I was trying to be good. I had set a goal for myself.... and I WALKED AWAY! I came home, hungrier than all hell, but I cut up my romaine lettuce, swapped the feta for some full fat sharp cheddar, skipped the light weight dressing and went for the full fat hidden valley ranch dip (I made the other day), needed meat... must have meat.... got a piece of the cooked pork tenderloin in the fridge... added walnuts, added sunflower seeds.... and Voila! Dinner! I changed up the meal plan because I was hungry, but not to far from the original, and I measured out everything into the portions that were called for in the meal plan. And it satisfied me. No, I wasn't so full and miserable that I couldn't move, but I was complete - no more hunger over the edge. I finished it up with oreo suprises for TomTom and I since the ice cream shop was closed.... fat free frozen chocolate yogurt (carefully portioned out for control) and three oreo cookies crumpled up, and all of it stirred together in a coffee mug. Yumalicious! I got him off and to bed after American Idol and did my cardio because I woke up too late this morning, ajnd that is just another day. I am often tempted to stray from my meal plan, but I am holding steady. I am often tempted by a huge hunger, but hold fast, and end up satisfied with the meal plan options.
Here is another example of weakness... I have been not feeling the best this week. Monday I went to the doctor because it sounded like I swallowed a frog I was so congested and stopped up. She gave me medicine and that awesome cough medicine with Hydrocodone. I didn't sleep at all Sunday night because I coughed all night long so I was ok with it. I came home early Monday, took the cough syrup and antibiotic - with my meal plan lunch - she told me to take it with food so I did - and about an hour later I was like WOOOO HOOOOO high and laid down in the bed. I don't think I got good sleep because I knew I had to pick up TomTom from my mom's. I went over there, made my meal plan dinner and brought TomTom home. I got him to bed, took my medicines again (because it was right after dinner and she said to take with food) and passed out.
The next morning I woke up, worked out to my video and cardio on the treadmill, then yoga. I made my meal plan breakfast and ate it beginning to feel a little woozy, but carried on with the morning routine. I got TomTom awake and into the bathroom to get ready for school. I was drinking my hot tea and watching the room swirl around me. I told him to scram... fast... MAKE WAY.... I knew I was going to throw up (this never happens to me unless it is late at night and I am drunk), but it happened... I threw up right then and there into the toilet... three times... gingerly thinking to myself how do I log that into sparkpeople?? Do I get calories back??????
I tried to persevere and continue on, TomTom was thoroughly grossed out. I showered, got ready for work, and got on the road. I was stopping here and there to catch my breath and steady myself. The drive was the worst. Getting him to school I thought I was going to hurl again, but knew I had nothing left in my stomach. I made it to drop him off then went right back to my drive way. I sat there a few minutes and decided to call the boss man. I told him what happened so far and that I was going in to set up crew changes, call the doctor, and I would update him later. He said he trusted me to know what I could or couldn't do and to take care of my work from home.
I called the doctor, hooked the computer up, set up crew changes, and next thing I know I was passed out. I woke up again around 3 PM when my mom called me. I think this was possibly a sign from my body self saying slow it down girl, you really are sick, and you need to heal. I got new medicine from the doctor that my mom was nice enough to pick up and bring to me. I hadn't eaten. I threw up my breakfast, part of last nights dinner, and slept through lunch. My mom was bringing TomTom to me so I didn't have to pick him up. I told her I was going to order pizza for us. Easy, simple, no prep, pizza. I thought about it for about a half hour. I decided to get up, cook the Tilapia - tater tots for him and salad with it for me, and be done with it. He was a bit upset he didn't get pizza, but I explained that I set a goal and pizza was the lazy way out. I didn't want to blow it with five pieces of pizza.
I am learning that it is just laziness that makes me go with the easier way out of food. Why get up and fix it when it can be delivered to your door ready to eat or picked up the same way????? But I did it... I moved past it. Not to mention, the night before when I came home with TomTom my medicine container was on the floor with NOTHING in it. Turns out the cats knocked it off the table and the dog ate it???? I freaked out at first thinking it was the blood pressure medicine but it turned out just to be the antibiotic, and 45 minutes later when I was on the phone with the pet poison people I started to find the blue pills scattered all over my house. I found 14 of the 19 and they decided it wasn't necessary to bring the animals in, just get the dog to puke by putting peroxide down his throat. So I did, and Forest did, and there were no pills in his stomach. I felt like crap. I felt like it was an evil plot by the cats. I felt horrible for what I did to Forest out of concern. Maybe it was karma that made me nauseous the next day and a throw up queen.
And that is where I am at now, still on the meal plan, and with all that drama exactly one week into it after my fast. That is another thing that gets me through my hunger.... I went three days without food, certainly I can handle another half hour.
This weekend is promising to be a great one because Nando and I are going to see Mamma Mia in Baton Rouge and then following it up with shopping. I also got a new hair cut and am going back to henna... sweet henna. I plan on doing that tomorrow night and will have to blog the process for shits and giggles.
That is this week in a nut shell! Toodalooo!
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