Let me say that I wrote this blog last night in a very bad mood. I am feeling much better tonight despite the fact that I revised the below entry and my computer did not save it. After even more huffing and puffing I am giving you the following with this prelude….
I know I have my own personality issues. My particular things that aggravate the hell out of some people, but unfortunately they are not the ones writing this blog.
Today was a day from hell. Everything I touched turned to absolute, positive crap. It started with all the work I did… AGAIN…. calling people in, giving them a chance of hope, and then being told every day since then that we will have to send them home with no explanation as to why and no answers to any of my questions. I’ve been fighting for these guys. OH they have a job, they have a job… WAIT… noooooooo, they don’t have a job. Get a crew, GET A CREW NOW… WAIT….. we need to stand down that crew and send them back home. It’s absolutely ridiculous and seriously wearing me down mentally.
I’ve been trying to make time to write my blog, but I haven’t even been successful with that. Right now my life has been slowly looming out of control. Tomtom has baseball on Wednesday for an hour, and Friday for two hours starting at six. This Thursday we have a religion meeting at 630 PM. Today, Tuesday, is the only day we have nothing to do after school. With that being said, I had to come home and weed eat because I want to cut the grass soon, but I have no idea when I am going to do that – but at least the weeding/edging is done so I just have to run the mower along the lawn… not to mention putting the lawn fertilizer down. I also had to fix my garden because when it rained the other day all the mud basically slid to the front of that pond and dumped right out, cracking the mud, burying the plants, so that’s a disaster. I added some compost to the top of that, but I don’t know how the plants are going to take to everything that happened. The lettuce garden is doing absolutely fine and I am beginning to think I should have just done both gardens that way. But that’s another matter and I can’t worry about it right now. I just have to see how it goes and make do with what I have. It is also another blog that I will have to post in the future about my garden episodes this weekend.
After that I came in and fixed dinner, did the dishes that have been piling up in the sink, took dishes out of the dishwasher, had TomTom help me with the laundry - which he was very good about that - and we ate our dinner together. Then I got up and started vacuuming the front room and the HEPA filters because those lights were on. Then he took his shower and I met him down the hallway in his room. I went to tuck him in and he hadn’t washed his face. He’s not listening, he’s not doing the things I ask of him and I have a very short fuse right now. He’s got his moments when he is his shining wonderful self. Then he has the moments where he just wastes my time because I have to ask him repeatedly to do things. I need to make a chore and award chart so he knows exactly what he needs to do and he can mark it off when it is done. He seems to like that, but then again that is time consuming and I am going to need to find some time to get that chart made up.
So there I am in TomTom’s room and I figured out that he hadn’t washed his face, but he had told me he had everything done. I screamed at him because he went and washed his face, came back five seconds later and absolutely nothing was wet on the child and he said he washed his face. I angrily told him to go do it again, and then I screamed at the top of my lungs “Hurry UP!” because he was dilly dallying in the hallway with the cats. I sat on the bed and I said to myself…. I need patience, and I need to get rid of the anger that i have in me right now. I’m so angry, so many reasons why, a lot of it is work and the way they treat people. What am I saying? It’s the way they treat everybody. You're important in the moment that they need you and then beyond that, nothing.
Finally Tomtom came back in the room, with a clean washed face, and I got him tucked in and off to bed. I then moved on to vacuum the cat room, then made fabric refresher to spray it on the furniture, and then I went back and mopped the living room. I hope that tomorrow I will be able to come home after baseball practice and vacuum and mop the kitchen area because that hasn’t been done in forever and after dealing with the mud all weekend long (the future garden blog will explain more) it’s been tracked into one end of the house and out of the other.
It is now about 1015pM and I am folding all the laundry because I hadn’t had time to deal with it. I had just been moving loads and dumping the clean ones onto my bed. I can’t go to bed until I move that, and at the same time I was supposed to make my blog tonight. I have so many things I have done that I want to write about but I haven’t had the time. I even have the pictures, I just need the time. All I can do is start with this blog and then as I get the time back track and get the previous blogs written and posted.
Blah, blah de-mother-freaking blah, blah!
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